Have you considered therapy?

You really should see someone soon. I don't know of anyone who treats software like it was some sort of religious icon, like you seem to do. Get a life. If you can't laugh at a few things, all there is left to do is cry. You will notice that I say nothing unless I have something I feel is worthwhile to say... or I keep my mouth shut ...something we could all learn from. That is called wisdom, and it comes with old age.

You have turned this forum into a psychological wasteland. You should have left well enough alone. End it now.